Tuesday, January 30, 2018

Pagan: Spell for the Full Blood Moon

This is for my household. Make adjustments in deities as you see fit.

Pre rit meditation:
Think seriously about the job you want.

Cast circle:
The year wheel goes round and so do we
Mother comes round, and so do we
All around and around
and round about,
power within
doubt without.

Call Quarters:

Hail, Spirits of the East and Air.
Rulers of mind and intellect, join us for this rite
Sharpen our wits and skills,
For we must know what to do and how to do it
hail and welcome

Hail, Spirits of the South and Fire
Rulers of passion and desire, join us for this rite
Inflame our needs and spark our passions
For talent and skill without passion are soulless
hail and welcome

Hail, Spirits of the West and Water.
Rulers of emotion and creativity, join us for this rite
Let our feelings and abilities flow
For without these, skill and passion turn out nothing
hail and welcome

Hail, Spirits of the North and Earth
Rulers of strength and stability, join us for this rite
Ground us in our reality and give us power to carry forth
For we must have the ability to DO our will.
hail and welcome

Tonight is the Full Moon in Leo, the Blood moon and a blue moon. This hasn’t happened since 1861.
Creativity, performance and power are all at their peak. So we draw on that. Tonight is about will. About doing what we will, about knowing our will and making it manifest, with some outside aid.

Light green candle
Thoth, lord of writing, lord of story, lord of the Moon,
grant us your gifts this night
To you belongs contentment, Thoth who overwhelms the earth with beauty

Light blue candle
Khnum, lord of all that is made,
aid us with our poor skills,
for the lord of the wheel is our father also.

Light gold candle
Swift Hermes, lord of travel and writing and commerce,
who give us songs and an open road,
join us with your gifts.

Light black candle
All-father Odin, who sees the wyrds of mortals,
Whsiperer of secrets who set Mani on his silver course in the night
join us with your wisdom.

Light white candle
Arianrhod, lady of the silver wheel,
from whom all come and to whom all return
We stand beneath your light, join us with your power

Tonight, we are here to work. We have work. We need work. Right now, you get to do work.

Your preparatory meditation was on the job you desire.
Now, shut your eyes. Relax. Think of that job, only of that job.
Think of applying, of sending your resume with the skills well highlighted, so that it leaps out at them.
Think of interviewing. See the interviewer. Make eye contact. Feel the handshake.
Think of getting the job, and doing intake paperwork. See the I9, the W4, the direct deposit paperwork.
Think of working at the job. See yourself carryng out the tasks, seeing others, doing the work.
Think of seeing the paystub in your hands.

Now, listen to me, you have a fire within you. Deep in you it burns.
The Gotterfunken, the spark of the gods within us.
I want you to see your fire.
It may look like a bonfire or an Olympic flame or any sort of fire.
The important thing is that it is your fire.
But see it.
Observe it.
And when you are ready, step into the middle of it.
The fire will not hurt you. It licks over your skin with a pleasant sensation.
Stand there. Let the fire rise back up, higher, higher, until it is over your head.
Open your eyes and your mouth. Breathe in and let the fire enter you.
Let it fill you.
Now it begins to burn, but the pain is not unendurable.
Breathe it out.
See the things that came with it. See your doubts, your fears. See your bad habits and other things.
Let the fire burn those away.
There they go, charred cinders up in smoke
Breathe the fire in again, let it wash through you and over you.
It purifies you, and makes you what you should become.
When you are ready, step out of the fire and into the patch of moonlight at your feet.
You’ve burned yourself clean.
Now let the Moon fill you up. Whether god or goddess, lord or lady, let this, a once-in-a-lifetime event, fill you.
I see the moon
the moon sees me
gods bless the moon-
and gods bless me. (3 times)
Come back slowly.


You have all the tools you need. You know what you need to know.
Your gods are with you.
Go and find work.

Lords and Lady, of your grace,
we thank you for your aid and love.
Guide us in the days to come as we use what we have done here tonight.
Lords and lady, you who hold both the moon and work together in your hands, you have aided us many times before, we thank you for your presence tonight. We are grateful for the gifts you have given us.. Bless us, bless the work of our hands and days.
Go if you must, stay if you will.
Hail and farewell

Spirits of the North,
we thank you for the stability and strength,
hail and farewell

Spirits of the West,
we thank you for the cereativity and emotion,
hail and farewell

Spirits of the south,
we thank you for the passion and desire,
hail and farewell

Spirits of the east,
we thank you for the wit and skills,
hail and farewell

Thursday, January 25, 2018

The best laid plans...

I am still driving the bus.

Ten years is too long to be off the road.
My skills are rusty as a bucket of old nails. And the company had neither time nor manpower to retrain me.
So, back to the bus and the cash register for a while.
I even got my gym membership back.


On a more positive front, I submitted The Sweet Science of Bruising to Apex. Here's hoping. Will try Dark Oak next.

Friday, January 19, 2018

Last Bus Driving Day

My last school bus route today.
Told my kids, introduced their new driver.
I took out my trash, turned in my time card and id badge

As I walked off the lot, I wasn't sure how to feel.

Part of me wanted to leap and shout and celebrate being free of a 40 mile drive and 430 alarms.
Part of me wanted to run back inside, yelling "It's a mistake, I can't go."
Part of me wanted to cry.

It's the first time I've left a job with mixed feelings.


Also of note:
The First Robin of Spring got in our house yesterday.
Mudd and I got it out without the cats mauling it.

Bird in the house=death
Robins=good fortune.
Even my omens are confused.

Thursday, January 18, 2018

We're 18 days in and everything is changing

On January 4th, my grandmother's birthday, I went for a job interview.

On Monday, I get behind the wheel of a rig for the first time in 5 years. I gave my 2 weeks at both jobs. Tomorrow is my last day on the schoolbus. Saturday is my last day at Michael's, which has been quite good to me for the last 27 months.

I'm scared and excited and have a batch of loose ends to tie up.
I have to cancel my gym membership.
I might have my last cashew chicken from New China for lunch.
I'll have to do all my laundry and get everything ready to go on Sunday.

Many things will be changing. But the road has changed since I was out there a decade ago.
I have more tech at my command and should be in better shape.

I worry about my folks at home, but they'll find a way to get by.

Tomorrow is my last 430 wake up for the schoolbus.
It's been a great ride, and I'm off an adventure now.